colin wilson ، who is a famous writer today ، who had given up temptation to suicide at the age of sixteen، describes: ،، i entered the chemistry lab and picked up the bottle of poison، poured it in the gl in front of me. i got engrossed in watching the color and imagined the taste in my mind. then i bought the acid my nose and sniffed the smell. at this moment، suddenly a spark of future shined in my mind. i could feel the burning sensation in my throat and i could feel and see the holes in my stomach. the poison damage sensation was so real as if i had drank it. then i made my self sure that till now i have not done anything. during the few moments that i had the gl in my hand was tasting the possibility of death. i thought to myself that if i have the courage to kill myself then i also have the courage to continue my life. ،،